Forget! Happy New Year Gf/Bf!

It's been so long I update my blog. Been busy lately. I don't know what I'm busy with. Working? Ok. There's lot to share but not now. When I'm totally free ok. Love, Dearly.

Hey gf/bf, it been so long never update. ya quite busy due to settle things at home and with incoming Raya. I'm at my grand's place. Family gathered. i have alot in mind to type about but i really don't know where to start. Ouhk. Start with, to all Muslim, Happy Fasting! to Yazmil, Happy Advance Birthday, to Asmah, Happy Belated Birthday, to Ney, Happy Advance Birthday.

I never fast today, period. Now all in my mind is Him. Ya Allah, berikan la aku petujuk ke arah yg benar. Aduh stress nye! Squidward, i hope u understand whats my position is. I'm sorry. U will be remember always.

Last Friday ( 4th September ), Edah sleep over my place. As usual for weekend, she always there to accompany me at home. Haha. Org lepas buka pegi Terawih, ni tidak, Edah on the other TV and Karaoke-ing. Haha. Really bad of her.

Baju Raya? Plan with family to wear Black this year. Also black with Ney. Actually plan to wear white but due to his clumsy-ness when wear white, so we decide to wear black. Baju Raya blum beli. Kuih blum buat. Rumah half kemas. Mcm mane ni.

Lastly, I MISS MY FANTASTIC 4!

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Gf/bf, been busy lately with outing. No time to update.

Status : Busy

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Hey gf / bf, now i accompany Ney studying for his quiz tomorrow. Wish u luck Ney. While he busy studying, i was busy typing a post in my blog. Hehe. But i do help him abit. Chey adik ajar abg sei. Hehe. Ok, past few days on 4th August, me, Ney, Rais & Wan, went to Karaoke! Its time for me to sing out loud. Hehe. Had fun. After Karaoke-ing, went for supper with Wan & Ney only. Rais went back to Sembawang to meet up with his friends. After eating, we head home.

Photos / Videos of Karaoke-ing will upload soon.


Yesterday on 6th August, Mother asked us, me & brother (Ijat) to accompany her to meet up her friend. ( Kawan kenal2 gitu loh) Haha. Met him. Ok la. Handsome but old. Hehe. Ijat & me felt awkward as we never see our Mother date before. Hehe. That guy was single after his wife death. Now he with his 3 daughter. DAUGHTER tau. Ish takde chance. Haha naughty thoughts. Ok ok. Erm.He brought us to Sembawang to eat Satay. He treat us good. So far so good. But i don't know about my elder brother. Will he debate with Mother about this? . Hehe. Ok ok.

Till here then.

Dearly.

I know its early in the morning. Crazy people only still awake at this hour to do their assignment. As if like theres no tomorrow. Just bored while doing my assignment, then in the meantime, Wan, my pen pal, accompany me by chatting. Hehe. He was talking about how dangerous is Tagged.com haha. As he experienced a lot of freak girls. He tell me all the story. Was so funny and hillarious, and i can't stop laughing. Ouh god that kind of poeple also got.Aduh i'm still laughing like hell haha. How i wish Ney was here to listen to his story. Talking about Ney, Ney aku rindu kau la!! Hehe. Miss him like hell seh. Thanks for dedi to me the song Ney but kapan si aku bilang I love U sama kamu. That was yesterday 31st July. Now I will say it out loud to everyone to see and hear, I LOVE U KHAIRULNIZAM.

Miss my girlfriends/boyfriends already.

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29th July has past. Wee. I had fun! Go party with girlfriends. Ika had a great story. Its end of our party, we went for lepaking at Clark Quay. She wanna went to the ladies and something happened, which we didn't even experience before. She insist to went alone. She was touched by this Indian guy in the ladies toliet. Ouh god. Sudden call received by her, catching her breath. I ran to her. Konon la nak kejar tu jantan biadab. Haha. Then we saw a group of policemen. We complained, they finding that guy till now no news. Haha. Pity Ika so paranoid which she said she wasn't. Shit that indian guy. Erk. Then at Clark Quay we lepak2, we saw Ajis!, the paranoid boy. Hehe. He was with his friend, lepaking also. & Happy advanced Birthday Dyla!! Dyla stop thanked me about the small cake and the fun u had. The others also do gave u happiness that night. But seriously we really had fun aduh. Lagi2 naughty thoughts by them. Ish. Adik mengalah dengan kakak eh. Haha. ok ok Till here then.

p.s : Please beware a Indian Guy at Clark Quay if u girls lepaking at there. BEWARE! Talking facts.

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Ecah, please. We do love u seh.

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Had a chat with Labu right now. Playing games, laugh2. Funny him. Miss him alot.

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Had a fantastic gather yesterday with the fantastic four. We plan to meet up at Cineleisure at 5pm. but i reached late as due to some family issues. Sorry Ecah & Aji, that had to wait for me & Edah for one hour plus. After meet up, we went to catch a movie 'The Haunting in Connecticut' at 7.10pm. In the theatre, Edah been shouting alot because of too scared. Haha. Funny, with the words she been shouting example ' nonok terlepas ' Haha so rude and embarassing. Behide us was this group of malay guys. Haha Palaaa Otakkk Tulll. After movie, we went to pool. Met Ecah's bestfriend, Ayu. After that we head home. Really miss us to be together!

Will upload picture soon.

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Being love by someone, is nice. One man is nice, what if more than one? Ouh my god. Confused. A situation been given by my own friend and i don't know how to help. I've gone through that situation but its really a bad situation. Drop the topic.

I can't wait for 29th July!

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Aku rindu KORANG la sih!! Ecah, Aji, Edah, Frost & Fadz! Bile nak kuar!!

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Hey gf/bf, been sicked lately. Being pass from Syidah. Now, still having my cough and Ney having the fever. Aduh.

Lets talk about 18th July, Ney's family book a couple of room at Swiss Hotel and on the day its self, NDP preview was played. From Swiss Hotel, we can see the floated stage clearly. I saw the fire works, the plane. Haha. So so fun. But surely not as fun as the usual day.

Pictures and Videos will upload soon.

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Adik Aryl & Ayuni

Due to my stupidness, never charged my phone on the 13th july, on 14th july had an arguement with Ney. But as usually, we will overcome it. The outcome, still in relationship. I'm sorry Ney.

And about my school thing, Graduating soon. Last module to overcome. Can't wait. But i'm still stress. My bestfriend, dilla, IMY u babe. She got a bf. Happy for u, gf.

Had my hair highlighted!

Till here then..

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Hey girlfriends/boyfriends, i have quit my job just for u all. Haha no la. Got some problems with the management. Miss u guys!! the past few days at work we, The Fantastic 4, did something stupid but fun. I can't remember when the date is. Thats the day we 4 get to know ourselves more better till now. Fantastic 4 - Ecah, The Ninja turtle Girl. Aji, The master Mind. Syidah, The Kentot girl. And lastly, me, The Info girl.

Then the only outing date i remember is on 13 July. The day we 4 + Fadhzel, Firdaus, Puteri, and Ajis went out. So so fun. Got one big rumors that i having an affair with this Fadhzel. Fadhzel is a Married guy. Is it wrong to praise a guy, Cute. It doesn't mean i love or like him. But he's Cute. I really can't resist it. Haha ok enough. He's taken. We went for makan at Simpang bedok, then go karaoke at Bedok Cash Studio, then go adventure. Really fun. One of us cried just because too scared of the Ghost. Haha.

Actually, theres alot to tell but i'm too tired. Will upload the pictures and vids sooner.

Miss u girlfriends/boyfriends.

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Ney have went for outing. Already miss him. Ney i promise i won't do it again. I'm sorry.

Girls, I miss u guys!!

XOXO

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I'm going to Malaysia today.. Gonna miss my sayang alot.. But I can't do anything as it is a family wedding i need attend.. So ri, jage diri baik2 k.. But most of all, i wanna apologise for being such a jerk.. I know ur hurt but I dunno why i still changing to the worst.. I love u so much to let u go.. Not even once I thought that way.. I want u to know that I'm really into u.. I'm grateful to have u.. I appreciate everything u've done for me.. But promise me again that u will never ever do what u have done again.. -"u I punye".. And we both know we mean it.. Dun forget to go to school on Sunday ok.. I'm not able to send u.. Juz call me as my hp is on 24/7 only for u..
-u tkmu naughty2 k, nanti kene sebat- Muackz!!

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Hey girlfriends/boyfriends, miss writing. So far my life, so good. But having some stress with financial lately. Ney, been missing me for days. Pity him. Miss u too. I've been busy with working. Work at night, morning got back home, sleeping. No time for him. Good news of him is his NS was postponed because of school. Alot of debts to settle. School fees, bills, Installment loans. Aduh. Sakit dong kepala.

At work, so far i can get through the environment. Quite difficult at start of work but now alhamdullilah i can get it through. Learn from mistake. Lately, had my Overtime. A big drama created by Rasyidah. Aduh, then Mama was frustrated with her. Pity my aunt.

Ok la. Wanna get ready to go work. Love u all!

ps: Ney, I know we been apart lately. But remember that my love for u never fade. Love u Crazyguy : Khairulnizam Abdul Jamil.

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Been hide my truth feelings towards him lately. Few more days to feel the real 'Lost day'. 9th June really do come. Got new job. At Pioneer Crest, as a Visual Inspection in Showa Denko company. Will start work today. Will get myself busy until his day of booking out from camp i can't meet him as i'm working. Try not to be sad.

I'm sorry Ney. Will be missing u. I work because what we have plan. Hope u understand.

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Firstly, Happy Birthday Grandmother!
Best of luck in every thing u do!
Love u!

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Stuck with this song.
Miley Cyrus - The Climb.

Hey! Still at my cousin's place. Plan change. Stupid interview was postponed. This morning, everything makes me pissed off. I don't know. Maybe too tired. My current assignment have not do. Exam is on this coming Sunday 24th May. Stress. Ney, right now sleeping. Morning at around 10am, he wakes me up. Meet me, pass money for cigs with extra cigs. Wanna hug him but i was so smelly hehe. IMY u Huney.

Will update later ok. Meanwhile, I stay at home.

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Now i at my cousin's place. Lepaking. Tomorrow got interview, going with my cousin. Thats the reason i'm here. Today nothing much happen. Had a long sleep. Mum abit pissed off with me because of something stupid. I miss Ney alot. He been so busy lately. Benci!

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Been weeks didn't update my blog. Been busy, but no sure busy with what. Ok, on 3rd May was mother's birthday but i was out to Kak Shima's chalet. I'm sorry Mother. As usual, wish her the happy birthday wishes. I know i didn't show how much i love u, mum. But believe me, my love towards u is unexplainable. Love.

Then on 13th May, went for ladies night at usual place with Dilla. Met her BF for first time. Zai his name is. She abit stress. Wanna tell the story about what Me & Dilla planned but too long la takpe la.

Between me & Ney, Happy 18th month Anniversary! Love u!!

Ok la Wanna sleep.

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Arghhh!!! Da lah type panjang2, lepas tu terdelete bile nak tuka font.. So stupid of me.. Mcm nak pecah otak tulis panjang2.. Haiz.. Nvm i write again.. Niari klua mcm tkde arah tujuan.. my main motive is just to meet my sayang.. ayu a.k.a nora a.k.a ayuni a.k.a bnyk lagi malas nk type.. wake up late afternoon (miss friday prayers again) becos werk late yesterday nite.. woke up, bath and straight go out to meet dearly.. buy for her ciggs bcos since yesterday she haven smoke.. Kesian die.. Da buy ciggs, kat luar rumah pon boleh argue skejap.. mcm budak2 la kite nie.. tapi tkpe.. da argue, lagi 5 min da ok.. tats what i really like about us... her mom cook one of my favourite dish.. i called it asam rebus ikan.. she called it gulai ikan.. tk tau mane satu yg btol.. nasib baik pasal name lauk pon tk gaduh.. hhahahahah.. sampai berpeluh aku makan pasal pedas campur panas.. tk senonoh seh.. after tat go to her grandma's house where i played with her little niece, Ayman.. so adorable.. feel like wanna bring him home tapi nanti lau aku gi keje sape nak jage plak kan.. after that i go home.. but afterall it was not boring la.. dapat jumpe my sayang je kirekan da cukop.. dun wan to ask for more.. not greedy laa... until here only i write down, if english no good, u just try to understand urself la.. if cannot, read again until can k..

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p.s. i really love u crazygurl.. (mcm da lame gitu kan tk panggil u crazygurl)

Sorry didn't update for days. Such a bored day lately. Been doing my spring cleaning to my house. Actually, had a ladies night at Powerhouse past Wednesday. With Dil, Nana (1) & Man. Eh kalau Man ade confirm bukan ladies night. Hehe. Ok2 not that fun la. Because my bestie didn't tag with me. She been so busy with work. IMY babe. I understand ur situation. Seriously not that fun. Met Nana (2) & Sasha (Nana (1)'s cousin) inside. And not forgeting that day was Zra's Birthday. Happy Belated Birthday girlfriend. Gtg. Miss girlfriends!! Muackies!

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EXHAUSTED. SICK. DOWN. WEAK. USELESS. FAILURE. PARANOID. SPOILT.
Its Me!

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As i said before, i'm useless. Made my mum cried with my performance. Made my Ney work so hard for me. I'm a failure. Haiz.






On Monday 6th April, went to karaoke studio at Cuppage Plaza with old friends, Faezah & Ayun ( Khairul ). There are some photo i took. Take a look.





Then on Tuesday went to Bugis Street. There this one new shopping centre just opened few days back. So Ney & me went to CHECK IT OUT! hehe. Then guess what!! Its DAVID ARCHULETA meet and autograph session. Haha. But too bad so pack and was forced by Ney to leave as he doesn't like crowded places. At least, i saw abit of him on stage because i'm so far away from stage. SO HANDSOME! Takleh carry sei. Waduh. haha. Kebetulan nak CHECK IT OUT! the new shopping centre. ILUMA Shopping Centre. Yeah i get the name!

Ok back to my problems. Its hard. Thinking of killing but i know its not the way out. Ah! Did i mention about the latest news!? Tergepah! Boleh pecah kepala aku! Ney will be in NS this coming 9th June. Ouh god. I know the fast he go in to NS, will end fast as his age gonna reach 22 soon. Waduh. Ok2 more pressure. Seriously don't know what to do. What should i do?

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p.s : I forgot! HAPPY BELATED 17TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY HUNEY! Loving u is like a dream that i don't want to wake up from. Love u Ney.

Fuuh. Just came back from Ney's Collegue's sister wedding at Johore Bahru. Been raining whole day. So I'm so WET! Hahaha. There no story to the outing. See pictures ok. =)










>> This song was sang by Zali (Ney's collegue)




Gadis idamanku
Hanya engkau yang satu
Hadir lah dalam mimpi mimpiku
Biar seribu biar ramai menganggu
Pada ku engkau lah ratu
Sejak mula bertemu
Kau buat siangku sedingin salju
Dan malam jadi hangat
Sehangat cintamu...

Kasihku
(That Girl Name) Kau Gadis idamanku
Dua hati menjadi satu
Bila kita bertemu oh
(That Girl Name) Gadis idamanku
Bila kan sampainya waktu
Kasih kita bertemu dalam cinta
(That Girl name)
Giler. He attracted with this one girl. Then he sang that song. Haha giler.


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Can't sleep & can't concentrate on my studies. Erk. Ney piss me off just now. Argh! Why can't he understand me? Is it that hard to understand me? Ish. Don't want to talk about him. Ok just Shiela told me that her friend Suzy, from my school. I don't know what actually Suzy told Shiela as whatever i asked Shiela regrading the topic, she would try to change topic. & it works. So sotong. Ishk. Lantak lah. Now I want SLEEP!

p.s: Talk whatever u wanna talk, me no no no care. Haha!
As what i say, I don’t want to hear your nonsense blah..blah.blah
‘Cause it all makes my day turn to gray. Don't wanna care. Erk!!
Bluek!!

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Edited just now. Was bored studying. Hehe

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In school, received some tips for incoming exam. That will ease my burden a little bit. Thanks Kasturi (my lecturer). Hehe but she quite bored actually. She asked us to write down the note while it can be print. Ouh god. We are so pampered. Hehe. Ok. After school, went straight home. Ate my dinner with ney and ney went home as he will be working at night. After done, i went to take a nap. So ngantok! (sleepy). Slept till 7pm. Duh still ngantok. Now i'm getting ready for heading BP. erk. Penat! (tired). I suppose will be sleeping soon today. As ney will be working and i'm nothing to do. So sleeping. Hehe. So updating tomorrow ok. Tata!

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I'm now in school & it was very damn bored as my lappy was down like drrr. Fed up. Alot to do with incoming exams. My dear. I was late just now. Very late. Sheila never turn up to class today. She said she would be VERY VERY late. My lappy lags alot. Thats what makes me ERGH!! Gitu loh. haha. ok Going to head home soon. So tata. Ney fetching me today. Hug! Miss u. Ok2 see ya later!

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Heading school soon. Ya i know, Sunday school?. hehe. Ya true. School on sunday. Alternate sunday. Ok. Still doing my report and not finish. Assignment half way done. Stress. But yesterday Ney help with my report which ease my burden a little bit. Thanks Ney. Ok got to head to school now. I'm late actually. Reach school will update ok. Brb!

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I can't sleep. Been thinking, why i have to quit my job and make my Ney like hell. I'm stress. Ney been support me since he knew me from the start. I'm in shame whenever they say i'm such a useless girl who being support by her own boyfriend, he's not her husband to lean on every time. I'm useless. That's what i told to myself everytime they open this topic. I've tried damn hard to find a suitable job for my own. Ney, i'm sorry if i'm driving ur life miserable. I'm sorry.

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ツ Deary Her.

She got BOYFRIEND.
She with alots of boy-friends.
They are all her BESTIE.
Dreaming of them is her desire.
Annoying. Crap.

Every time i think of you
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue
It's not a problem of mine
But it's a problem i find
Living a life that i can;t leave behide
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And everyday my confusion grows
Everytime i see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moments
You say the words that i can't say

I feel fine and i feel good
I feel like i never should
Whenever i get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if i hurt someone else
Then i'll never see just what we're meant to be.

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